Him💎

Dear Love, 

I know I wasn’t the person you hoped I would be. I know I hurt you with my anger, my walls, and my toxicity. I was broken, and I took it out on the one person who tried to love me the hardest. I can never truly take back the things I said or the hurt I caused, and for that, I am so deeply sorry. I see it now, clearer than I ever did before the pain I brought into our lives, the way I let my rage dictate everything. But, somehow, you loved me anyway. And it was that your love, patience, your kindness that made me realize how far I had fallen.

This breakup, as agonizing as it has been, is the painful clarity I needed. It’s in this space, this raw and empty space without you, that I’m learning to breathe again. I’m learning to be calm, to find peace within myself where there used to be nothing but now with goals. I’m learning what it means to love without anger, without the need to control, without expecting anything in return. You’ve shown me what real love is.. not the kind that demands or manipulates, but the kind that simply exists, steady and pure.

Though we are no longer together, I don’t want you to think that I’m letting go. I can’t. Even if our paths don’t cross again, I will carry you with me, forever changed by the love we shared. I believe that love doesn’t vanish, even in separation. If we are meant to be together again, we will be. I trust that life will bring us back when it’s the right time, and when we are both ready.

Until then, I will continue to work on myself, on healing, on becoming the person I should have been all along. But know that, no matter where life takes me, my love for you will never fade. It will remain, calm now, but as powerful as ever.

Please take care of your heart. Know that I love you more than I ever let myself show, and I will always be here, even if it's from a distance, loving you quietly.

Forever yours, always.